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Ran a part of the Louisville Loop on Saturday. Pictures are from Saturday run with Alex (his first 10 miler) and Sunday's 10 mile (6 mile sub 11:30-12:00 with last 4 progressive tempo to finish last mile at 5k pace).
Talked to Dad today, he got good news from his specialist and a discussion about more tests. Overall he is happy with the prognosis. We also had a discussion about financing the Run. He is worried about the Run dipping into Amy and my personal finances too much, so he wants to send me money to help pay for gas and incidentals. He wants to talk to mom and figure out what they can afford to donate. I started getting frustrated a little as I explained to him that the idea was to honor them, our relatives we’ve lost to complications with diabetes, other people who have diabetes. I also said it was a way to thank him and mom for all they have done for me and others. I used to think Dad had a hearing problem. What I have learned is he follows his own train of thought and sometimes that train of thought is very loud. He can’t hear you talking over the whistle and click-clack as it travels through his mind. If you are talking to him face to face, it is very easy to see the train rolling through, but if you are on a phone, he pauses lets you speak, then continues when you have finished completely oblivious to what you have just said. I have experimented in the past to test this hypothesis by stringing random words together like, “Walrus pancakes shrimp road banana switch table.” That time he continued on about a story from when moved in with Aunt Helyn of which I was supposed to learn a lesson of some kind. As I continued talking with him tonight, I realized he wasn’t listening, and they had made a decision.
There are battles to fight and battles to compromise and battles to lose. You realize this as you get older. I think this is a battle for me to lose. Dad and Mom want to feel more active in the Run Across Kentucky, so I should let them. It would be selfish to do otherwise. Even though I’m doing the running, it is not about me.
Our kids, Sara and Josh, lost their grandfather on their Dad’s side this week (I am their stepdad). Grief is difficult to deal with for many people, but they are doing well. That side of their family has been through a lot in the past few years and needs positive thoughts and prayers. Please keep add them to your prayers especially over the next few weeks as they all adjust to new routines.
Peace be with you.